Today Lily smiled intentionally for the first time!!!  She's had quite a few sleepy smiles and a few moments where her face smiled but it was obviously just relfexive muscles.  Today was different.  She smiled and giggled at Mommy while I was talking to her.  Toothless grins are my absolute favorite too.  Her whole face lit up when she smiled and realized my positive reaction to her smiling.  I'm going to work on getting a good smiley picture tomorrow to show off.  We're also going to work on a few pictures of Lily posed next to her scrapbook that I put her full name on.  It doesn't sound very fun but I promise the pictures will be cute. 

Also on the board for Mommy tomorrow is the beginning of a job search.  Thought about going back to my previous job but I just can't risk being promised things I'll never actually get as far as a schedule goes.  I'm going to look for a full time, day time position somewhere.  There are a few places around town hiring waitresses so I'll be trying my luck there first.  Once a job is acquired I'll be able to start saving to get school paid off, buy a car, and prepare to move.  Lots to think about and lots to prepare for mentally, physically and financially too.  I know I said before that I decided to move back to Warrensburg but I don't think I'm completely sold on that idea.  Warrensburg is somewhere that's easy for me to get complacent and not move forward.  I know it's different now that I have Lily, she's my entire reason for everything I'm going to do and accomplish in the future but I don't want to set myself up for failure.  I miss everything about home, except the drama that surrounds being in your hometown.  And of course the drama surrounding Lily's dad and his girlfriend.  I really don't want to be anywhere near that nonsense.  I want to be closer so that Lily can develop a strong relationship with her dad but I don't want to be anywhere near his issues with his girlfriend. 

Like I said, so much to think about and prepare for.  I've got plenty of time to do it though.  For now concentrate on the small feats.  Getting some good pictures tomorrow and picking up a few apps to turn in next week.  Gotta get the steady job before I can worry about anything else.